The Dark Night of the Soul

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It’s been a long time since our last post. Unfortunately, I (Kris) have been very ill, but that wasn’t the main reason for not posting until now. During a recent low point in my health, I also went into spiritual crisis, and my old adversaries ‘doubt’ and ‘resistance’ took up lodgings in my head and my heart, bringing with them a new friend – ‘hopelessness’.

I had never experienced such a dark and lonely void and I wasn’t sure I was ever going to return from it; or if I did, how much of my spiritual self would remain intact. Since beginning our explorations with the Ouija board and Channelling, I have always felt a connection with my guides – even whilst I was doubting my ability to connect, I never doubted their existence, and so always felt they were with me and on my side – even if they couldn’t ever intervene on my behalf and take all my pain and fear away. During this bleak period, I lost all trust, hope and belief in them and life. I turned away from my connection with them and sent myself into a mire of ‘what’s the point of anything?’ There’s more to it than that, but that’s what it amounted to.

During this time of shut off and shut down, I would experience subtle inclinations towards hope and love. When I mentioned these fleeting experiences to my partner, Paddy, I would be filled with unexpected emotion. I’ve come to realise that this is an indication that my guides are with me and so I couldn’t deny that they were holding me and caring for me. As I began to allow these experiences to find their way into my heart, I began to notice synchronicities that encouraged me to keep moving forward towards the light of ‘all is well’.

Desperate to return to the familiar and comforting world of spirituality, I’d challenged my guides to provide me with something so unequivocal that there would be no way I could question its origin, and thus be able use it as a lever to prise myself out of my new way of thinking that we are all just powerless pawns in a big cosmic game. I asked for a feather, to arrive in such a fashion that I couldn’t doubt its meaning – I felt that should be easy for them to arrange. A couple of days later, as I sat on the first floor of a café looking out of the window towards the building opposite, I saw a feather gently floating down towards the ground. I doubted that this was the feather I’d asked for, and confirmed my doubt when I saw a pigeon on a ledge above (but way to the left) of where I’d seen the feather.

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A few days later, Paddy brought in a bucket full of wood he’d just chopped in the small coal bunker attached to the house. He always manages to come in with bits of cobweb stuck to his fleece, but this time I noticed something was hanging from the usual bit of web – a feather. There’s a small door space into the bunker, but it’s so cold, dark and damp, I couldn’t imagine how a bird or a feather could find its way in there. I reluctantly accepted this as my ‘sign’, especially as Paddy was so insistent that it couldn’t be anything else and that I would just be being stubborn if I ignored it!

Since then I have been able to allow more and more ‘evidence’ (synchronicities, coincidence, positive thoughts dropping unexpectedly into my head, the feeling of being loved suddenly filling my heart), evidence that I am not alone, that I am safe, I am loved, I am always connected, that all is well.

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Slowly I am making my way back into the world of metaphysics and spirituality – all made possible with the love of Paddy, my dear friends and my amazing guides. I suppose it’s not uncommon for people on this path to go through phases of spiritual crisis and depression as we try to make sense of just how incredible the universe is, how little we know or understand about how it all works and where we fit in. Instead of trying to figure it out as a physical being, I’m now going to allow my non-physical self and friends to guide me through, and to, what matters to me: living each day as it comes, gratitude for all that I have, celebrating the connections I have both in physical and non-physical, and trusting that not only is all well, all is always well.

Suicide – break the cycle of despair

So much of this session now makes perfect sense. At the time, we couldn’t understand what was being said. What’s really incredible is that at the time, Pad was writing music for a show. He produced several pieces of music over the following months; and then, in Mar 2013, the show premiered in France. There was one particular track that our friend, Colette, wanted to use in a different way. So, a month or so after the show premiered, she had a local engineer do some work on it. It’s Pad’s music with extra sound effects and it sounds amazing. Also, since this session, we have gone on to read several books by Frank DeMarco and have even Skyped with him. Continue reading

Mediumship or Channelling? What’s the difference?

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So much is changing for us in our experiences of what we call ‘channelling’, that we have decided to break from our usual format of posting articles. As this Blog is about exploring Inner and Outer Dimensions together, we can no longer ignore the changes taking place in our understanding of how we connect with discarnate energies and the energy of those who have passed. We’re really happy with this new development as it opens up so much more to explore and share with you. Continue reading

We are your psychic trainers

This was a bitter-sweet session for me, but an exciting and exhilarating one for both Paddy and myself (Kris). Neither of us realised that our previous session (which I haven’t included in this Blog it as it wasn’t particularly moving or enlightening) would be our last one with our ‘Seth’. There wasn’t even a hint that things were about to change so dramatically, and so no sense of it being an end leading to a new beginning. Continue reading

TO SOUL TRAVEL YOU MUST PUT YOUR TRUST IN US

OUIJA SESSION 48  17/3/12

In this session, Seth and Pad’s guide (and Dad) explain that sex with soul is beneficial to our spiritual development and that it doesn’t necessarily have to of the Tantric variety! Thank goodness for that! I don’t think I’d have the patience :p

The timing of this post is an example of synchronicity in action. A couple of weekends ago, Paddy and I participated in an Excursion weekend. This is the Monroe Institute (TMI) programme that helps to develop our ability to, amongst other things, have out of body experiences (OOBE’s). It was a great weekend even though I didn’t actually experience a regular OOBE – the reason is explained in this timely session. Continue reading

We are here for your spiritual knowledge, mutual understanding, love and your personal development

There are many timely things about this particular post. Paddy had completed his first day of a weekend Open to Channelling workshop run by Delcia; my daughter has embarked on giving Tarot readings professionally in the past couple of months; and Seth talks about my being ready to have out of body experiences (OOBE’s). Tomorrow, Paddy and I will be attending our first Monroe Institute Excursion weekend. We will be developing our ability to connect and communicate with other forms of consciousness and, hopefully, increasing the likelihood of having regular, controlled OOBE’s. In the last several months I have become familiar with Frank DeMarco‘s work on Intuitive Linked Communication – or Channelling – and through that, I’ve become acquainted with the work of Bob Monroe. Hence the timeliness of this particular Ouija session. Seth also speaks about the film script they have asked me to write about how Jane Roberts and Rob Butts connected with their Seth – even now, this is an on-going project, and one I hope to complete in the near future. Continue reading

Can you make love without it being spiritual?

This by far is the most amazing, loving. supportive session we have ever had. Even now, over 16 months later, I still get emotional when I read it . It’s this session in particular that makes me so defensive of using the Ouija board to contact ‘others’. I know there are better ways, but I’ve not quite mastered how to have a channelled or intuitive conversation yet that even comes close to this. It’s clear from the flow of letters into words into sentences that something important had shifted for all of us: something that enabled them to come through so clearly and undistorted. Continue reading

We are here ‘to give each other more experience in physical being’

OUIJA SESSION 39   5/1/12

In this session, we tried once again to get some idea of our ‘entity’ names. Jane Roberts’ Seth called her and her husband Robert Butts, by what he termed their entity names – Rubert (Jane) and Joseph (Rob). Much earlier in our Ouija days, we were told by ‘Frank’, that our ‘entity’ names were also Rubert and Joseph. At the time, we tried to make sense of what was happening, but could never come up with a satisfactory explanation. I now believe that there were times when we were in contact with what Abraham calls ‘frivolous’ energies. It was as if they could tap into our thoughts, hopes and dreams and use this information to play with us. Of course, it could just as easily be explained as us unwittingly communicating with our subconscious minds. However, I still believe that a lot of what has come through via the Ouija board has been from outside of ourselves; but those we felt to be truly genuine, probably because of our lack of focus and belief, couldn’t always maintain contact strongly enough. Continue reading

We open the way for Energy to make death not feared

This is the latter half of what was a very emotional and difficult session for all concerned. I considered putting up the entire session, but eventually decided that it was just too personal (and very long!). Perhaps I’m doing a dis-service to the Ouija process and our guides in not sharing such an intensive example of how much this communication can help us to deal with deeply rooted personal issues and experiences, and how they can be used in conjunction with our dreams.

At this stage of our connection with who was, at that time, referred to as Seth (it has since changed) I was extremely ill and trying desperately to heal without the use of orthodox medicine or treatment. Now, over a year later, I am better than I have been in a long time. A lot of my healing I have no doubt came from the work we did with our Seth – both directly through the Ouija and Channelling, and indirectly through the support, love and guidance ‘he’ gave me throughout that very difficult time. Thanks, Seth! Continue reading

Energy goes everywhere your thoughts go

In this second half of session 36, Paddy got to talk to his dad in a way that he never would have done had his dad still been in physical. It was very moving for us both, but particularly cathartic for Paddy. Working in this way with (our) Seth, is another example of how our sessions help to heal historical rifts with family members, as well as helping us to work on personal issues.

At this point in the session we discussed that once someone has passed, conversation is no longer about everyday things – they are no longer relevant, it’s about love and caring and just being able to communicate. We also learned that the way we think about our passed loved ones affects them – helping or hindering them in their development and learning depending on whether our thoughts are loving or bitter, for example.

OUIJA SESSION 36 (part 2) 30/12/11

Pad: Thank you, Seth. I’d like to speak to my dad, if he’s there.

Kris: Are you there, John?

            YES

Pad: Hello, dad. What would you like me to call you?

           EVERY TIME U CALL I AM HERE

Pad: Merry Christmas and a happy New Year. I suppose the first thing I wanted to say was thanks for all the things that you did for me when you were here (in physical). And I would like to try to make a stronger contact…

           GIVE KRIS MORE LOVE

Kris: (laughs) John, he’s going to think it’s me doing that. (pause) Well, I feel love from Pad, John.

Pad: So, do you think I’m holding back?

            YES

Pad: So do you have any specific advice, anything that…

            SHE DOESNT HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS FOR HERSELF Continue reading